Okay So I Was Really Looking Forward To A Baby Shower With Family And Close Friends. Unfortunately I Dont Have Any Friends litteraly lol Kind Of Embarassing To Admit Except For My Coworkers But Its Not The Same. And All My Family Is Out Of State And My Hubbys Mom Doesnt Really Like Me So This Is All Just Painful As Is. And My Mom Is Planning A Baby Shower With All Of Her Church Friends Wich I Think Is Pretty Sweet But I Dont Want A Pity Shower Thats Even More Sad. It Hurts That I Wont Be Able To Enjoy My Shower Around Family And Instead With A Bunch Of People That I Dont Even Know To The Point Where I Just Want To Say Fuck The Shower And Get Everything Myself ... Sorry Just Needed To Vent To Someone Out There Who May Understand How I Feel .