Telling mom?…

I have a YouTube channel & want to share past experiences I’ve gone through. my mom doesn’t know about a lot of them….. I’ve been sexually assaulted/ raped & had 3 miscarriages all in my teen years but I never told her because I didn’t know how & they ended in miscarriage. She always told me I would have to do adoption & I never wanted that. I’m 19 & have 1 baby girl & I’m currently married. But idk how to tell her because I want to share my story on my channel I know I should talk to her before I share it I’m just worried I’m gonna get “you lied to me!” “It’s your fault” …..

She’s always said that when we dress immodest we encourage guys to treat us that way… even articles that she read about girls being raped and seeing pictures of them In a crop top or short skirt she would say “they encouraged it”

I just don’t know how to share it…. My mom is one of my best friends I was in an extremely abusive relationship got pregnant 17 and I told her cuz I knew I would be 18 when baby was born. That’s the little girl I have now…. My mom helped me through all of it and was so supportive I just don’t think she’ll react the same…