Venting

I’m just feeling angry and need to vent I guess..

I’m 37 weeks pregnant and I also have a toddler. My partner is barely home. Always at work or the gym…. However lately he’s been gone a lot more often, getting home late and sleeping on the couch. I look after our toddler and I do all the cooking and cleaning with very minimal help.

He’s been running out of money lately a lot too (and he earns more than I do)

I found out tonight that after work/ the gym he’s been going and getting stoned with his other work mates.. I sort of had a suspicion earlier in the week, he smelt like it last night but I brushed it off.

This has really upset me to be honest. I know he’s an adult and can do what he wants but here’s the thing:

I could go into labour at any moment now really… what if he’s stoned? What if I can’t get hold of him?

He’s snuck around and not told me, I had to ask him (yes at least he was honest but he knew I wouldn’t be ok with it and that’s why he didn’t say anything. It’s been a month since he’s started doing it.)

He’s running out of money? He’s been relying on me financially some weeks and he earns more than I do…. He can’t buy our kid clothes but he can buy weed? That’s just wrong.

I’m feeling quite upset and I’m not really sure what to say or do. I told him I’m not happy and I’m really disappointed and I’ve gone to bed… 😔