Will it just end in a MC again? What do I do?

Danielle

I'm so confused. I had a MC in February. It was so hard because my tests were all over the place. Positive one day negative the next. Then positive only at night and not during the day. Then eventually negative. Even after having positive digitals too. Bloodwork always came back under 3 however at one point my progesterone was rising higher. Once my home tests started going negative, my progesterone went low, and I started bleeding. It was such a mess. I had so much bloodwork to test for hormonal imbalances and PCOS. Everything came back normal. Same thing happened in November. My boyfriend and I have been pretty stressed and scarred since all that and all the back and forth that we literally stopped having sex. We had it for the first time since the MC on 4/17 and literally just that day. Turns out I was ovulating and now I'm 3 days late. Not to be graphic or gross, but we used a condom that was originally attempted to put on the wrong side and flipped over and used correctly. There was precum present on him at the time. Could that really have gotten me pregnant? I was sitting here around 2am and went to the bathroom and came back to my room and realized my period was late. I went back to the bathroom just a few minutes after going and got enough urine for a first response test I had left over. This is the result I got. What scares me is yes, there's a line, but it was in the time frame. Actually, early into the time frame. I am hoping it's an ident. I can't to the back and forth again or suffer another MC. My boyfriend is going to freak out! I'm not saying a word this time until I physically see a baby on ultrasound. How could this happen???

Edit: took two more tests. One this morning around 6:30 which had a faint line as well and one this afternoon around 2pm which had the faintest of lines. It’s like history is repeating itself and I’ll only have positives at night. Do I just ignore it assuming it’s either a fluke or will end in a MC again? I don’t even want to tell my Doctor because she’ll probably think I’m just crazy. My boyfriend will completely freak out so I’m so alone.