I’m lost a little..

This is my first time opening up about this but I can really tell anyone face to face.

My boyfriend at the time was very pushy when it came to sex multiple time I had told him no that I didn’t want to have sex that I just didn’t feel good. And he kept on saying “you don’t love me” “ it’ll be quick” etc. and after me saying no he continued until I finally gave In.

One night i had told him no multiple times before I had laid down. I finally laid down and I thought he was going to sleep too so I rolled over. I was almost asleep. I was half awake half asleep and I had felt him roll over towards me. I didn’t think anything of it. I had finally fell asleep and I had woke up enough to go to roll over and he had his fingers inside me while I was asleep. I had woke up and told him that what he was doing was wrong and i had went off on him but his excuse was that he was horny.

And he had said since I was already awake then he wanted sex. And I told him no and he sat and kept asking and asking until I finally gave in and let him hurry and finish so he would leave me alone.

I haven’t spoke to anyone about this but I don’t even know if I should consider it rape… I don’t know I don’t wanna say I was raped and it not be considered rape…