I wish my SO would understand today

I love my SO he's so understanding but today is just one of those days where im in my feelings & i broke down & cried in our bedroom he didn't hear me crying until he opened the door & saw me with tears in my eyes i miss my grandma more than anything 😢😢😢😢 he trys to understand but he doesnt get that i been depressed since she passed i find comfort knowing my grandpaw is with her but i wish heaven wasnt so far away i tell him this but he says im so happy i smile when im around him 💔 can yall just send me prays