I never really talked about this but…

But as a kid I had issues with my “thoughts” as an example I would think in my head that if I didn’t flip the light switch 4 times that a close family member would die because I didn’t. This was around when I was about 13ish.. and now that I have my own family my boyfriend and kids I don’t do the whole light switch thing anymore but now it’s more like if something isn’t facing the same direction then something bad will happen if I don’t fix it. Also I’m a very big overthinker I literally let my overthinking mess with my peace I’m so exhausted having to deal with this… 😔 especially now that I’m a mom I overthink so much when it comes to my kids and their safety. Anyone know what this could be?