2 years

Got back with my HS sweetheart 2 years ago. In the beginning everything was good we moved in together 6 months in & he became very verbally , emotionally & physically abusive. I got into it multiple times with his friends & family because he always had a way of making it seem like I was a crazy person & they didn’t like me because “we weren’t serious in their eyes” his mom treated me some type of way behind closed doors & he never stood up for me. I found out I was pregnant and went thru 9 months of hell. He would get mad at me if I took too long to come see him when I would go on my lunch breaks at work & one time he slapped me because we share a vehicle and he had to bring me the car on my lunch break I have no control over what time my lunch break would be at work so when things would slow down I’ll give him an estimate time on when he could come. After I had my baby he wanted to start having sex again and got upset because I didn’t want to bc I was still in my 6 weeks of healing. He kicked me in my stomach and started punching me with our daughter in his hand. I can’t find the strength to leave him I honestly don’t know why we currently have a DV case right now that because he was hitting me and my neighbors called the cops & they arrested him. He tells me everytime we fight that it’s my fault why he acts the way he does. He asked me about a guy from my past I don’t like to bring up my past because he gets jealous and starts an argument because he doesn’t like hearing that I’ve been with other guys before him so I don’t understand why he asked me about this guy. Idk how I’m going to leave him & I really don’t know why I’m afraid to. He’s hurted me so much and I’m not happy. Recently we had a fight because I was asking him to come hold me & he didn’t want to it turned into a physical fight where he was kicking me and punching me in the head calling me a stupid bitch & telling me im the worst mistake of his life & he should’ve never got me pregnant… his friends and family think that im the one doing this to him but it’s him. I have a dark complexion so you can’t really see any bruises on me. I plan on setting up cameras because when I do leave I want a restraining order against him & zero contact. He’s a great dad to our daughter but he treats me so badly I never cheated on him or did anything to hurt him so I don’t understand why I’m getting treated this way.