Another period due today, I’m 13DPO negative HCG….. fingers crossed for a BFP this week….

I have this problem, each time I take a test,

I feel like I see vvvvvfls. There’s nothing there, they’re true negatives. But I can’t help but stare for ages trying to make out a line.

I’m 36, have a son who will be 2 next month and we miscarried at the beginning of February this year.

I’m struggling with obsessing over my cycle each month since the MC. This month felt a little more relaxed than the last two but I feel like to get over the emotional hump of the miscarriage, I told myself it was okay because we’d get pregnant again. I’m not sure how to “turn off” my hyper cycle awareness.

Any advice, TTCers?

Thank you and baby dust to everyone ❤️