My husband cheated on me not long ago and I've tried so hard to get over it. This girl is still living at the place where he works, (his buddy's house, he does auto body work in his friends garage). His friend let her stay there because she has nowhere else to go. Anyway he lied about it all of course and I installed a spy app on his phone after he came back and said he wanted to be with me and work things out. A few days later, I caught him telling her he loves her and stuff still. He is still here with me because I'm an idiot and forgave him a second time. 🙃 He is on a kind of drug at this time I won't mention what kind. But I have an urge to go through his phone...and it's in his hands religiously. The only chance I get is when he's sleeping and then I get nervous he will wake up and catch me. He gets mad if I look thru it whiles he's asleep. I've told him if there's nothing to hide, he shouldn't have a problem with me looking through it. But then he just gets mad that I don't trust him and says I'll never let it go. If I ask him to see it he says why ? Or he says hold on a minute... Like he's deleting evidence. It's obvious that I don't want to lose him. But I'm scared that by the time he wants to become sober, I'll already be pushed so far away that I won't love him like I did.