I want an abortion

I'm so poorly I can't take no more I'm 9 weeks and in hospital on drips being stabbed with needles and all sorts I'm bipolar that's not helping my 3 kids at home are crying for me and it's Xmas iv well and truly had enough!!!!  I don't believe in God or nothing like that I no this may upset some folk trying for a baby but your not in my shoes and have no idea how poorly I am I don't no what elc I can do !