My name is Taniesa, I am 37 and I have PCOS with Infertility Issues. At the age of 17 I was diagnosed with PCOS or as some call it PCOD (Polycystic Ovarian Disorder), at 17 I knew the issues I would face one day but I was a teenager babies/ kids was not on my mind so I just put it to the side and enjoyed being a teenager and young adult. Well things changed when I was 23 I was engaged and about to be married and my soon to be husband at the time and I started doing what was needed to have a family. I under went exploratory female surgery to confirm my PCOS diagnosis and to make sure there was not endometriosis, no endometriosis but my ovaries did have PCOS. So my soon to be husband at the time even was checked and he was all good. So after I was healed from my surgery the doctor started me on Metformin, & Progesterone and Clomid once we was married and plus we had a schedule of went to have relations. After a year and a half our marriage started to fall apart and we divorced. So after that I seem to always dated guys that did not want kids and then I was in a long term relationship with a guy that was fixed plus he did not want any more kids. He had 3 kids already and they became my kids and I still love them dearly to this day. After about 12 years of feeling worthless as a woman I thought I had came to terms that I would never have a child of my own. After 8 years of being in a longterm relationship God closed the door to it. I put up some heavy walls after that door was closed, but God allowed a special man to come into my life and break those walls down with out me realizing. God open a new door to a new life with an amazing man that loves me without a doubt and he wanted kids too. So I opened that door again to be a mom to my own little love bug. We married a started on growing our family. I have been going to specialist, monitoring my cycles, taking my temp, back on Metformin, checking other female things, etc. But each month I get depressed when the test is negative. Bring back all the heartaches of getting older each year knowing that with every month my chances deminish more and more. Feels as though the desire of my heart well never be.