it feels like my 4 year old hates my guts.

i’ve posted this a month ago when it first started happening but it seems to be getting worse. to start, my son is 4. i co parent (we have joint, 50/50 custody) with my ex.

my ex is very well off in terms of money and on the other hand, i’m not. i mean i make enough to have my own house and everything we need but nothing extra such as quads, boats, rzrs, etc. i’m 27 weeks pregnant right now with my fiancés baby (him and my son are super close, my son says they are “boys” lol)

but for the past two months my son does not ever hardly want to come to my house. everytime i go pick him up, it’s a fit. he won’t look at me. he won’t hug me bye. he won’t say “i love you” back. it’s like he hates me. on my days i try to make them as fun as i can. water parks, fairs, i bought a blow up pool with a slide, ride scooters, bought a puppy for him, go to parks etc and still… even while doing these fun activities he’ll say “take me to daddy’s”.

i honestly don’t know if it’s a phase, i know he’s obviously a daddy’s boy but could it be due to me being pregnant? we are moving in a month and i’m hoping the change of a nicer, bigger house kind of motivates a change in him. but in the meantime… my heart is broke. i DREAD picking him up because i already know how it’s going to go (i don’t show that obviously, i’m always in a happy mood trying to be chipper even though deep down my feelings are hurt) and his dad is like “well he can stay” and i’m like 😐 NO I MISS HIM. but i don’t want to force my 4 year old to go somewhere he doesn’t want to. i cannot manually force him into my car. i’m in a high risk pregnancy and probably shouldn’t be as active as i am with him but i’m trying so hard. and it feels like he loves me less. crying now as i type this 😭 i e tried to talk to him about it, lightly, to see what the issue is and all i get is “i just want to see daddy” and i’m like “i understand that buddy, but i missed you. we’re going to have a fun day” and he says “well i didn’t miss you. take me to daddy’s.”

i’m at a loss. i don’t know what to do. i feel like a piece of shit. even at his soccer games he won’t come over and say hi to me. he runs straight to his dads family. it’s always just me and my fiancé because i don’t have family and my ex has a HUGE audience come to every game and it’s so awkward for me when my kid is side eyeing me and doesn’t even want to wave back. i cry under my sunglasses half the time. i’m crushed. i’ll never let my 4 year old know that though because it’s my emotional burden feeling so hurt about it.