2 under 2...I dont feel ready.

I feel like I should preface this by saying outright that I am pro choice...

I lost an ivf baby in January 2021, ended up pregnant with my rainbow boy in March 2021, he was borne October 2021. Flash forward to yesterday, I am getting faint positives on my premom brand HCG tests. Now I am happily married ,and know the risks of unprotected sex (so I don't need the lecture) and I was on birth control but- missed 2 pills keeping up with my 7 month old.

I am grateful don't get me wrong, as infertility is absolutely hell to live through, but we just got settled into a nice routine with my son, and I am not sure if I'm ready to be in the newborn phase again. My husband works and I am a SAHM, and we live very comfortably. He very much desires this pregnancy, but I am not really sure.

I am carrying a lot of guilt right now. Any advice is appreciated.