Do you ever stop feeling guilty? *TW miscarriage mentioned.*

I had an early miscarriage the first time I was pregnant. It happened 5 years ago on January 6th 2017. I still feel guilty. I know there was nothing I could have done to prevent it, but despite knowing that, it doesn’t help. I keep wondering if I had gone to the hospital when I started bleeding maybe something could have been done. I know that’s not true though.

I got pregnant with my now 4 year old daughter 6 months after and now I also have a son who will be 2 in October. I feel bad that in a way I’m okay it happened since I have them, the children I believe I was truly meant to have.

Karma got me though. Before it happening I was the kind of person who thought people should consider themselves lucky if they have a miscarriage, it means at least they can get pregnant. That pain I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.

I swear I didn’t mean for this to be novel lol.