I was waiting to post this til I got over my experience this time.

so since 36 weeks, I was 3 cm dilated and 70% effaced which normally doesn't mean anything but for me and my history of fast labors, it raised anxiety in me and the doctor at the time who had delivered my last baby after 2 hours of cervidel. I also have 3 other children(the father of my daughters passed away in April so the child care aspect was a worry again) and my birthing hospital is an hr away 🙃

fast forward 2 weeks, the one doctor had come in and talked about induction at 39 weeks. none of my babes have come before then so it was pretty safe to schedule it. until a resident came to see me afterwards, told me she didn't think it was necessary and if I had to I could just go to our closest hospital and push him out in the er (her words) and they'd transfer me later. it's better than nothing she said which you just love to hear when it comes to bringing your baby safely into the world. she said once my contractions are 15 minutes apart i should head in (has anyone had constant contractions cause i had them everyday for weeks by her account i should have been in the hospital everyday) I walked out that day for the simple fact no one ever listens to me when it comes to my body. I know.

so I was filled with panic until may 28th. lol I woke up at 10 o clock am with contractions 5 minutes apart.

yay.

I get to the hospital there's 10, yes 10, staff members there to use me as a teaching lesson for students while my contractions are two minutes apart, I'm 10 cm already. my bag is bulging. then they proceed to break my water and tell me I had to push.

my contractions were every 2 minutes. never got on top of each other. yet they're all screaming at me that I'm pushing wrong. I'm not doing anything right. my husband passed out because I started losing my color. I kept telling them I couldn't push until a contraction and they kept shoving my legs back telling me I had to push (baby was in no danger and I've safely delivered all of my babies naturally. when you need to push you know)

finally I turned around. I told most of them to get tf out of my room and if one more person told me i didn't know what to do or tried to make me push in between contractions leaving me with no energy during contractions I was going to snap.

after taking control waiting only for what I felt he was out in four pushes. at 11:45 am 🙃 all 8 lbs 8 Oz of him. my sweet little Lucas