This might be kind of long but here we go.

Is anyone leaning towards being one and done due to a demanding career? I work a corporate job, have been here 8 years and it just continues to get more and more demanding. 3 years ago I took a leap and got promoted to an underwriting position and I just keep getting more and more territories all over the US that I have to travel to. I'm actually typing this from a hotel room on a business trip. My supervisor is always telling me how they want to put me into more states and grow them because management thinks highly of me. I've always had an extremely strong work ethic and have always worked my butt off without really thinking about it. It's just how I am. Well my supervisor basically told me I can advance in the company anywhere I wanted to go. I just turned 30. My CEO of the company started in my position.

Anyway, I've always dreamed of having 2 kids. I was an only child and swore I'd give my kid a sibling. But my son takes up all my free time outside of work, and because he's in daycare full time I want to spend as much quality time with him as possible when I can. Thinking about having to split my time between two just seems impossible and not fair to my son. He's also sick a ton from daycare and my job is so demanding I almost never take PTO and usually work if he's sick. I have 120 hrs of PTO I need to use 🥴

I feel guilty that I'm putting my career over my dream of having two kids. But I'm perfectly content with just one and it's HARD being a working Mom. We have no help. Our parents still work, my husband doesn't get PTO or sick time when our son is sick and since I work from home it's all on me. I know work will always be there, but I love my job and I want to keep doing well and expanding my career. I often think about the fact if I didn't work, or worked part time, I'd probably already have a 2nd child by now.

Anyone else in a similar boat?