Boyfriend struggles

So I've struggled with depression and I'm getting better but I still have crappy days/nights and I want to text my boyfriend and talk to him but he gets angry with me when I talk about being worthless and other things that go along with low self esteem. It's kinda sweet cause he's mad because he thinks I shouldn't feel that way but him being angry with me for the most part just doesn't help, sometimes it does snap me out of it but most times it doesn't. We already have a kinda rocky relationship, it's great when we're around each other but distance really takes its toll so I don't want to make him upset by asking him not to be upset cause we just had an argument about him making me feel bad for feeling so I don't want to do the same thing so the only thing I can think to do is just not talk to him about it but in the moment he's the only one I want to talk to so it makes it a bit worse thinking I can't talk to him. I'm starting up my meds again so hopefully I'll get better and this won't be an issue anymore but for now it is idk I think I'm just gonna pretend it's not an issue and see if it goes away.