I’m 38 years old. Last month I was contacted by an old acquaintance that I knew as early as 8th grade but last contact was sophomore year in high school.

Anyway, as I said, he reached out to me out of the blue. Expressing that he has always found me incredibly beautiful but that he had been eyeing me for a while but never had the courage to make a move. This particular night he had some liquid courage and that was it. Lol

Now, to say I was reluctant is an understatement. This man is WAY out of my league as far as I’m concerned. He’s a former Marine and is just has the most beautiful blue eyes and smile. And a most sexy dad bod. Lol

I, though am 5’11 , 330 lbs and wear a size 24 jeans and a 3x t shirt for size reference. Basically shaped like a pear with tree trunks for legs. I carry my weight well, but of course I have always been very uncomfortable with my body and I have rolls and cellulite etc. I’ve also had 3 children so my boobs aren’t what they used to be. Lol

We met up May 25th and had a rendezvous. He drove 3 hours to me. It was literally the best sex I’ve ever had in my life. Even though I was so terrified about how I looked he made me feel like it wasn’t an issue.

We have since met up 2 more times, him coming to me and we message/talk every day. Neither of us are looking for a relationship though.

He made a comment that he wants me to not be so uncomfortable with myself. He wants me to model for him or take “spicy” pictures. Not that I haven’t sent some… but I filter the hell out of them. He claims he loves how I look. I decided to hurt my own feelings and ask him if I was the biggest woman he’d ever been with and he did say yes. Which kinda made me cringe. He hates when I down myself but honestly I can’t help it.

How can I be more comfortable around him and do the things he’s asking. Especially in person. He’s literally kissed, licked or but (lol) every part of my body… with the light from the tv so it wasn’t pitch black dark. I want to see what he sees or I’m so worried that he’s just trying not to hurt my feelings. Advice would be helpful!!