TTC first timer!

Emma • 31 married PREGNANT
Hi guys, my husband and I have been trying for 9 mnths now without any luck, as I've never been through this before I think I just assumed it would happen easily and quickly. I am now getting to the stage I dread hearing from friends ect that they are expecting I know that sounds awfull but it makes me so sad I feel like crying and I feel jealous of them! I know  for some people we havnt been trying long but ever since we decided to start trying it's like a switch flipped in me and it all I want! Every month is so depressing when when it doesn't happen. I don't know what else to do or try we are healthy and make sure we BD when we are supposed to. I've made an appt to see a dr to have fertility tests done this week so at least then we will know where we stand on that front . I hope someone can relate to my story to give me some hope that I'm not crasy! Anyway thanks for listening