I need to vent😭

yadi

I am 28 years old. I have to boys ages 6&4. I’m having major baby fever And my partner has a daughter of his own. I want a little girl. Of my own. We don’t use protection at all. I was on the nexplonon for almost 2 years. I got it removed in early May I believe. I have normal periods even when I was on it. 3 days max. It’s killing me i want one more. I don’t know if I should give up! I told my partner that if we can’t have anymore I want to get fit and be healthy to take my mind off of it. I haves been over eating and this has caused me to gain 10lbs. And I’m very mad at myself for letting it happen. I constant spend money on pregnancy tests. I have spent over $100 just this month waiting to see two lines. I just need to pick up a hobby 😭😢