Obsessive thoughts

I’m a FTM to a handsome, almost 4 month old. This is all so new to me and although I never thought it would be easy, I’m really struggling. I have obsessive thoughts that something is wrong with him, why isn’t he smiling enough, making enough eye contact, he does these things but not enough so I become obsessed with trying to get him to do them and I end up with bad anxiety when it doesn’t happen.

I am in therapy and also take medication and it helps but I still can’t seem to shake the OCD part. I’ve always had OCD but postpartum has brought it to a whole new level. Has anyone else been like this? I would appreciate any advice you have.

I’m crazy focused on milestones and I know every baby is different but if he doesn’t meet them I drive myself crazy and start googling, I just want to enjoy my baby but instead I’m constantly anxious and worried ☹️