RVW: I had an abortion and I’m not ok lately

5 years ago I had an abortion for lethal fetal abnormalities. My baby wouldn’t have made it to term, let alone survived delivery. He had a long list of major birth defects. I was around 19 weeks. I went through 2 years of depression, PTSD and finally came out the other end. When the news comes out about RVW, it’s like reopening the wound all over again. All I can think about is guilt and it’s like 1000 steps back in the healing process. Anyone else feel this way?