Feeling overwhelmed

Just had a big old cry, feeling so overwhelmed and alone. Coming onto 38 weeks and no signs of labour. Im worried that every day longer I carry, the bigger she gets. I am hoping for natural but Im Concerned my baby is too big and gonna suffer some kind birth trauma, hoping I dont need a c/s cos I am all alone with no support and worried about the recovery time and whether I'll be able to look after my baby and recover from surgery. My partner is supportive, but its just the two of us in a foreign country.