Any uplifting words in a bad place right now

I really thought this was going to be the month I became pregnant I have irregular cycles so I decided to track my ovulation and yesterday evening I had a peak but me and my boyfriend didn’t even get to BD the last time was on the 5th of this month it hurt so bad because his birthday is on August 21st and I wanted to surprise him and tell him he was going to be a father and I won’t even be able to do that and I’m so heartbroken