Absolutely terrified tmi warning

I had some constipation last month and had some blood in my stool. I didn’t think much of it because I’ve heard you can bleed from constipation and it went away. Well today I had a lot of blood in my stool. I actually thought I had started my period because it looked like period heavy bleeding, but quickly realized it was not from my period. This has happened twice today.

I left a message with my doctor. I have a cousin that is dying from colon cancer in her thirties. I’m 28 with a little boy. We were actually about to start trying again. I’m absolutely terrified this is colon cancer and I can’t stop crying. I hope I can get in soon.

Has anyone else experienced this? Any words of encouragement or warning? Idk what I’m looking for, I’m just scared and my mind is going down the worst case scenario right now. Help please!!!!

I hope it’s ok I posted anonymously. In case there is anyone on here I know, I don’t want this to be known until I know more.