Would I be terrible if I did this anyway?

Every year I manage a very big project for one of our clients. It involves multiple orders, multiple locations, multiple installations, printing, gifting, etc. It's a great cash injection to the business but I manage like 90% of it.

Last year my new business partner insisted on a bonus for the project and insisted we get the same amount. I complied last year but this year, I thought hold on. If I am the one who is doing all the organising and running around and communicating and and and, what entitles her to the same bonus as me? So I asked her and she said because she holds down the fort while I'm gone (people rarely call my department anyway, maybe one or two calls a month) and we are 50/50 partners in my business so therefore we're entitled to the same benefits.

I don't agree with that, seeing that I am the one that's filling out paperwork and corresponding with numerous people and making sure we meet the deadlines, etc. So I thought of saying fine, whatever but when it comes to paying a bonus, still paying myself a bit extra. She has no access to the finances (and doesn't want any access either, I have offered) so she will never see it. Would I be terrible if I did that?

I want to also add that although we are 50/50 partners, when it comes to months where our cashflow is coming in slowly or we don't have enough money to fully pay our salaries, it's only me that takes a financial hit. She always complains she *needs* her salary no matter what so I am always left having to pay myself the balance the next month or the month after. So it's not always fair anyway.

@ It would if there was no valid reason for it. If she was just helping herself to money for no reason. She has used company expenses for coffee and whatever all else, nevermind the fact that most of the time, I am making the financial sacrifice when push comes to shove. As it is the company still owes me a few thousand bucks because of this situation, where cashflow as been slow.

@I've tried talking to her about the financial hits and she just says that she's got a child she needs to feed and school fees she needs to pay, she can't afford not to have her salary (whereas I don't have kids so automatically it's assumed I don't have as many expenses as her). She's not willing to entertain a conversation on that.