Am I wrong for feeling dread?

So I have pneumonia and have been sick for a while, my husband and I have 2 young kids and a dog. Today my husband had knee surgery and I am dreading him coming home. Is that selfish of me? I’m only dreading it because I don’t know what his recovery is going to look like, and myself already feeling like garbage and struggling to catch my breath on top of parenting our children and looking after our dog plus working full time I’m really hoping he will be mobile and I won’t have to do everything for him. I feel so heartless saying that but this momma is beyond exhausted 😩