Vent post

So this morning I took a test after period being late for 2 weeks it was positive pink dye and everything well I came home from work and guess who decided to show her ugly face AF now I wasn’t gonna test but my best friend and I really wanna have a baby so we both try every month she convinced me to test now I feel like I hit rock bottom and at this point I’m over trying but I’m 30 with 1 child and I just cried for an hour and my husband didn’t say one word but he swear he wants another kid I just feel alone and helpless