My boyfriend and i have been together almost three years. We have had alot of ups and downs and even had a break last December. We found out we were expexting in January and sadly lost our baby girl at five months in May. We haven't been having sex lately. The last time we had sex i was asleep and i woke up to it. I was ok with it but it seems like lately he wants all of the sexual attention for himself. I have given him several blow jobs and handies and he always gets his happy ending, i havent had an orgasm for a month now. I initiate it almost all of the time and it just ends there. I get no reaction other than getting a hand guiding my head or my hand in the right direction.

We have talked about having another baby and he decided that if it happens it happens but we don't need to plan( three months after our angel was born). He can't afford a Christmas present for me this year(he gets paid three days later) so i told him that i wanted to talk about when we should start planning and saving to have a baby and he got furious and told me not to bring it up again. I am just so confused. He doesn't want to have sex with me and he doesnt want to plan for the future. I am reaching my breaking point.

Bless you for reading this all the way through. And thanks for any advice that is given.

-21 & cracking