I’m heavily surrounded by women who shouldn’t have kids. Women who chose drugs before food for their children. A Women who sleeps around and brings random men around my niece. Multiple Women who get pregnant to keep a man.

All me and my husband used to talk about was how we’d raise our future children better than our parents ever could. How we’d show them the world and understand them and give them love. We want to give our future children two loving parents.

But theres all these women who can’t meet basic requirements for raising a baby. Shit happens and sometimes people need help but I’ve seen people close to me neglect their children because that baby that they had to glue their relationship is just an inconvenience for them.

My loving husband has built a foundation for us and any baby that might come along but lately we’ve had no luck. I’m young…really young but I’m ready to find my purpose. But unfortunately I haven’t been able to get pregnant it frustrates me and I cry too often but this group really validated my feelings. I don’t feel wrong for completely avoiding the baby section at the store. I don’t feel alone when I scroll past all the pregnancy/motherhood TikToks.

I’ve stopped over spending on all the pregnancy test and pills. I can finally breathe knowing I’m not alone. To anyone that has to go through the heart break when you see an new born or anyone who’s crying on the toilet after that morning bleed…I wish you all the happiness and peace in these tough times.