I’m going to try to keep this short. A few weeks back I had a broken tooth get infected. I don’t have dental insurance. I called every dentist in my area getting estimates to have the tooth removed. All of them were booked months out. I was in immense pain. My boyfriends brother is a drug addict, has been for years. He offered me something to take the pain away. I smoked fetty. (Let me back track and say the pain was so bad I couldn’t work a full shift, the infection was making me sick, I was struggling hard). He started giving us a little bit to help with the pain. I’d take the littlest hit every 5-6 hours. Fast forward almost a month, and we’re hooked. I’ve never been addicted to anything except caffeine. I don’t know what to do anymore. I cry everyday because I hate how this stuff makes me feel and I hate even more how I feel without it. I’ve tried to come off it a couple times and the withdraw is the worst thing I’ve ever experienced. We’re trying to wean off of it, but even that I don’t know how to do. I’m at a loss. I wish I could go back and never try it. Has anyone struggled with addiction and have any advice? Please don’t tell me to just be sick and get over it. It’s not a sickness I can explain. It feels like my skin is on fire and covered in ice at the same time. And that’s only day one. I’ve never made it passed that to see how much worse it gets, and I know it gets worse before it gets better. And the mental aspect is a whole other issue. I get the most severe anxiety I’ve ever had. Like anxiety that literally takes my breath away. Please help me.

Edit: I did go to the ER, three separate times and got two different prescriptions and the third time they gave me IV antibiotics and the pain was still severe and the infection wouldn’t go away. It took 3 weeks to get the infection out. This is the first week I’ve been pain free