On February 1st, When I should have been 11 weeks pregnant, I found out that my baby stopped growing at 8 weeks 3 days. On February 4, I had my D&C. Last week I got my first positive pregnancy test. I’m scared. My husband and my family are so excited, but I can’t be excited because I don’t want to go through what I went through last time. I’ve taken 10 pregnancy tests in the past week, all positive. But I feel like I’m just waiting to start bleeding or to get a negative pregnancy test. I want to be excited, but I don’t want to feel the pain I felt last time again. Im 25 and healthy, but that didn’t stop it from happening last time. I feel sick that I am feeling this way. I want to be happy. I really do. All I’ve ever wanted was to be a mom, but this is so hard. I guess I just need to get this off my chest. Please share any kind words of encouragement… I could really use it right now.