SA** Would you forgive you mom for this

So when i was about 4 to 6 years old girl my girl cousin who was about 6 years older made me do stuff to her and she done stuff back to me. She made me eat her out. I dont know how long it went on for but i do know it happened more than once. I didnt know no better. She even blackmailed me. Well one time either her mom or my mom walked in and all they said was to stop or they will take it to court.

She didnt take me to therapy or nothing. I am now almost 30 and just now realizing what happened and that it was very wrong. I brought it up to her at first she was like i dont remember. Then she called me a couple days later and was like yeah it seems like i remember some.

Now i mentioned to her that i may start therapy and she acted like she didnt want me to. She was like will they ask for names. I was like i dont care. I just need help for me. I dont even remember much of my childhood. I think she thought i was too young to remember it or something