Afraid to test

I guess im just here to vent. * Not looking for medical advice.* My period is later than usual. The past couple of weeks I've had nausea, sore breasts, fatigue. And now yesterday nothing but a tiny bit of soreness. I have the same symptoms when I'm starting my period so 😩 hoping she comes. I'm not ttc but I do feel some disappointment when I get a negative pregnancy test. I do have children as well. Anyone relate or am I crazy? Lol.