Help pls don’t comment anything judgemental

Make a longer story short me and my child’s father have been together for 4 years we lived together and have a one year old daughter; the relationship was so toxic I got me and my daughters things and left while he was at work, we’ve been separated for 3months I ended up movin on my own taking care of our kid pretty much by myself and decided I was done with him well about two weeks ago I let him talk me in to workin on our family and me and my daughter went to stay the night for a weekend and me and bd ended up having sex the whole time he even mentioned another kid and I never really said much we didn’t use a condom because I didn’t want him thinking I was sleeping with someone else I also was taking bc as well after tht. Weekend a situation occurred and me and my mom and him and his franns ended up getting in to a fight and now all of a sudden he says he doesn’t love me any more and doesn’t want nothing to do with me and it’s been like that for about two weeks. And he’s saying he’s not with another female he just doesn’t have feelings for me any more and that honestly made me so depressed hurt upset and has me down all of a sudden because I love him so much and I don’t knw how to let this toxic ass person go, I just found I’m pregnant again with our second baby and he told me to get rid of it and have a abortion because he doesn’t want it when he litteraly admitted he got me pregnant on purpose before he all of a sudden hated me for a child a$$ reason, I know I’m not ready for another kid right now I’m only 19 but about %60 of me wants to keep the baby and the other half of me thinks I shouldn’t. Because I don’t wanna go through him leaving me alone with two kids by myself after he said he didn’t want another baby I’m just stuck and don’t really know what to do, but part of me believes this baby was sent from god for a reason because when we had our first it took us a little over a year to conceive and now this time after a little fling I’m pregnant that quick and we didn’t even have to really try. I wanted to know if any of you guys been through this and what did you decide to do or how was it with two so young?