Hi I’m 17 and a couple a months ago I got into the car of a guy I met on YUBO which is like a teen friend type thing and let give some context.

It was the last week of my junior year so school days were half days meaning you could leave early I usually had a guy who I would ask rides for but we were fighting and weren’t

Talking to each other. So I asked the guy from Yubo for a ride and he agreed to a 25 to 20 minute drive to pick me up and was saying if I was going to give head or have sex… I initially wanted to because I just needed a ride home so he agreed I even went to bathroom and freshened up for it.

So he gets here and I immediately notice one he doesn’t look like his picture two he smells like fish and three I just didn’t want to do it anymore because I was uncomfortable and just didn’t want to do it. So he’s asking where I wanted to have sex another thing is he had foreskin I personally don’t like foreskin so I really didn’t want to do it

So he starts rubbing my thighs which makes me tense and I try holding his hand to calm myself down I couldn’t. I told him I didn’t want to have sex anymore and if he could just take me home by saying my dad needed me home.

He drives to a parking lot where he wants me to give oral sex I really didn’t want to because he smelled like fish. He just kept saying come on just do it and I didn’t want to stay in that parking lot and do that I told him I’d do it while he drives me home so I don’t even do it I’m just poking my tongue at it I don’t want to do it

I sit up and tell I’m scared and I’m nervous and maybe we should like her to know each other he just tells me to come on and it’s not that serious I said he could just finger me. I regret saying that. It hurt it was painful he pulls into a neighborhood and he starts trying to finger me it hurt. At this moment I was texting my friends to call me so I can get him to take me home I was so uncomfortable and tense.

One of my friends answers and I act as panda was my sister while the dude is still trying to finger me it was hurting me. He finally starts driving only if I again do oral sex. I didn’t want to. I told him I was scared and

Just doesn’t

Want to be still told me to do it I said what about a hang job. I didn’t want to do it again. So he said that was fine he pulled into s neighborhood that was being built and he told me to expose my breasts so he can bum on them. I did. He came on my breast it smelled bad.

After that he finally took me home and I called

My friend (I had him drop me down the street from my house) I had a mental breakdown and blocked him on everything. I told my friend group and

They didn’t believe me.

I honestly don’t know if it’s my fault I promised him sexual things but I wanted to stop I feel as if this is my fault it doesn’t feel like rape or assault I don’t want to put myself in the same category as people who actually were. When I was younger I was touched by multiple men. But I just this time it feels

Like my fault yk.

I’m sorry if this is long and stuff but I’ve just been thinking about this. It all feels

Like my fault like I

Caused this to happen me…

Like I go on the rape awareness tab on tiktok because it’s something I just think about but I feel like this happenings to me is less serious but it’s all I can think about sometimes