Just need to vent….

So I’ve suffered from diagnosed depression since I was about 22yrs old- though experience the symptoms and never knew what it was since I was about 12/13yrs old… I’m currently (almost) 18weeks pregnant with my first baby and having the worst “down spout” that I’ve had in a very long time.

I’m not happy with myself, my job, I feel so alone and not even my husband is able to fix this feeling. I have 0 sex drive. I feel like I’m damn near invisible at work, I know I haven’t gotten snappy with anyone (that I know of) and I just feel foolish for having all these damn feelings… I am on anti-depressants… I don’t want to switch or come off of them… and this makes me even more terrified of PPD. I’m to the point almost anything makes me emotional and want to cry, and I just want to hide away the rest of my pregnancy…. Please tell me I’m not alone in this experience?!?!