Unexpected Pregnancy and Pregnancy Depression

It’s so crazy how things happened. I left my boyfriend of two years because we were having a lot of issues, and moved across country. I had to fly back home for my grandmothers funeral and of course stood there with him at our old apartment out of comfortability. He was always so careful with pulling out the two years we lived together. I kind of feel like getting me pregnant was done intentionally because he wanted me back home. Now I’m pregnant across country and alone. He’s saying he’s moving out here, but it’s been months and he hasn’t made any moves. I’m a little frustrated, because this is not how I envisioned my third pregnancy after 7 years since my last. I wanted to be showered with love and babied which is why I waited so long. I know that I’m part to blame because I should have done things to prevent this from happening. I’ve never had an abortion so I was absolutely terrified. But because I’m going through this alone right now, I’m battling a deep depression. Anyone ever dealt with depression and anxiety during pregnancy? It always feels 100x worse. It feels like just to brush my hair and get out of bed is such a task. Besides the fatigue I’ve been dealing with from pregnancy, I just don’t want to deal with life right now.