Welp after 2 days of wondering if AF is coming or not, I'm officially out this month. #CD1 but honestly after 9 months of actively trying and about 10 months before that of not trying but not preventing, I'm really giving up. I'm beyond mad at my body because no matter how well I try to time it, it just doesn't seem to take. Like I'm happy for y'all that everyone's getting their bfp's but I'm tired of fucking congratulating people and putting a smile on for them when I just want to fucking rage out because it's not my turn and honestly feels like I won't get it. I don't need any of y'all's "it'll come! Stay optimistic!" Bullshit. Because at this point I doubt it will and I only wrote this bullshit to vent because I have no one to vent to. So. 👍