Newlyweds

Hey all,

So i got married 2 weeks ago, we have been living together 3 years and the day we moved in I forgot my pill and we agreed to stop not trying. Aka the casual 'what will be will be' attitude towards babies. But 3 years and probably 20 tests later i started tracking and monitoring and crying over our apparent struggles and i realised we were no longer simply not taking precautions but we were trying and it was hard.

I was then diagnosed with PCOS and told that the hormone levels through all of my blood tests for several years showed the same result and it is likely we will struggle.

My one best friend doesn't want kids and my other best friend only has to look at her fiance to get pregnant, she has 3 accidental kids (but very special and loved). I guess i am just posting because i am feeling quite low about it all and super alone, my husband is amazing but he isnt the one crying over little cups of wee in the bathroom.

Anyway... Ive been taking ovulation tests for a couple of months and they have always been blank until this week when i got a positive result and some faint lines too. Obviously i informed my husband who luckily did not require any explanation or persuasion and immediately ran off to our bedroom in preparation. We have 'actively' tried for the first time and i dont want to get my hopes up because i already feel heart broken that I probably wont be pregnant.

All those years of being warned about teen pregnancies and noone told me that this bit would be so hard. 😩