Don’t know how to feel

Today would be 16Dpo I hope? I’ve been trying to have my first child since the end of 2019. In total I’ve had 5 pregnancies within 1 year (2020) Surprising right! I tracked my ovulation two times but second time I ran out of ovulation strips and the money for it so I did the best I can. 🥹🥲 I know now to do double tests mid of my cycle but I had to do my best to stretch my money.

1) Miscarriage @ 6 weeks

2) Etopic (Left Tube) ended with natural miscarriage @ 8 1/2 Weeks

3) Miscarriage @ 4 weeks

4) Missed Miscarriage

5) Missed Miscarriage

Had my 1st Hsg done and was told my uterus was towards my back and that my left tube was closed probably since birth doctor claimed and couldn’t see right tube.

2nd Hsg was done a month later and had some good news that they was able to see my right and I ended up having a flow through both tubes (Open).

I was then told I had mild pcos and I might have to be put on pills to force my eggs to release even though I have normal periods that last 5-6 days and hormone levels are normal. I just pray God keeps me motivated! Because the way I’m feeling is exhausting to keep bottling up the emotions when it’s time to hold on to hope but then hope let’s me down every time now

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