I hadn’t had sex with a girl and finally did after all my anxiety and after all the years of worry.

Neither of us realised she had the start of a coldstore… long story short I’m now 25 and a newly single from a 6 year relationship with genital herpes. Living in a small town (when I inevitably have to inform someone, I need to be sure they won’t embarrass me out of spite if we did break up - that’s a concern now)

I’ve gone through all stages of dealing with this, from pure low depression to an empowerment of many people have this and I shouldn’t be ashamed, and then right back down again.

I told my mother because I needed support and now she can’t even look at me normal.

I just feel broken and don’t know where to go with myself. I’ve always been very sex positive and safe.

But can anyone ever go down on me again without me having to warn them?

Just scavenge the streets for someone with a cold sore to date because they can’t get it down below? Perfect match hey?

But on the other hand I have been thinking of a labiaplasty now to reduce the surface area on which the outbreak will occur in future, so there’s a bit of a win? (Time to save I guess)

I really now feel like the universe is just laughing at me for not thinking clear one night.

Advice or just anything really would be appreciated