I just found out im pregnant for the 5th time (1 son and 3 miscarriages) and my boyfriend doesn’t want me to keep it. He says he’s not ready and doesn’t want

It. We had our son as teenagers with absolutely nothing and no idea what we were doing. Now we’re grown with our own everything. I’m just confused because I want my child, after 3 miscarriages, I want my kid. Nothing in life is easy, never has been. In my mind I was under the impression that he’d atleast be accepting of it after 3 miscarriages but he wants no parts of it and says he obligated to take care of his child regardless but I know he’d view him or her as a mistake and no child deserves to not feel love or less than. I’d hate myself if I got ‘rid’ of it but I know he’d hate me and it if I didn’t. Everyday I fight depression and the will to live and this tiny piece of me gives back the hope and faith I use to have in life, outside of my son whose already here. He constantly asks for a sibling. I’m not sure what to do or think anymore.