This is really hard

Coming up to 2 years TTC with no luck and the last 6 months it feels like everyone around me is getting pregnant and having babies. It’s almost weekly now with new announcements and I die a little each time. I cry most days, and I’m inconsolable most of the time. Friends say to relax and not try so much but honestly I don’t know how to do that. How do you do that?? I’m coming up to 36 in November and I don’t feel like I’ve got time to not think about it and relax.

Any ideas on what to do ? Starting clomid soon. But I feel so hopeless and get into a panic quite often when I think about my age and how badly this is just not working out for me.