I've been working the last 9 months part time at a physical labor job. I am also home with the kids during the day ages 1 and 3. We cannot afford me not working and we have no family that can help with childcare. I'm burnt out. Physically I am in so much pain I just cry at night. I can't sleep. I'm on no meds. I have no insurance. The stress of everything on me is affecting me and my condition.

I just feel so stuck and cannot get relief. My life doesn't slow down. I know this pain is making me so unbearable to be around. I want to cut my legs off. I have no way to stop this chaos that is happening and I don't see an end to this pain. It's breaking me.