Moms with for babies

A big part of me wants to have four kids but I’m going to be honest I am completely terrified to have a fourth baby I don’t know I just seem completely outnumbered and the way the world is lately I feel like it would be hard to protect all four if something ever happened my kids are really young so if I was to have a fourth I would want to get it out of the way being that I will be 37 next month on the 4th and I don’t want to be in my 40s with a newborn to be honest if you’re a mom with four kids preferably for under six how is it going for you how do you do bed times and bath times and such Things as that my oldest will be five next year in April my middle child will be three in January and my baby will be one in December I am literally scheduled to get a bilateral salpingectomy on the 19th and I am so confused on if I should keep the appointment Or have one more baby not going to lie it is very overwhelming my husband is not home much and when he is the kids rarely listen when he is at work Or gone they are completely different and that is when I struggle on going through with the procedure or having one more if you’ve made it this far thank you for reading if you could help me make this decision a little easier I would really appreciate it I’m scared to get my tubes removed and regret not having another one and I’m scared to not get my tubes removed and end up regretting the decision of having four it’s confusing