Christian life

I saved myself for marriage and remained pure in a relationship with my boyfriend he told me he would marry me so why did we have to wait to have sex if he would have sex with me now and sex after we're married and I thought it made sense because he promised to spend the rest of his life with me.we were engaged and have sex. We were together for four years and he always said he was saving up for the wedding and he left me

He broke up with me we were living together and he said he didn't want to be in a relationship he didn't want marriage to anyone.

It devastated me one night he came home he took my things outside the house and told me to leave

It devastated me I had no where to go no car no house and he told me to leave had changed the locks when I was at the store earlier in the day he did this at night and he wouldn't give me a reason or break up with me look me in the eyes tell me what was going on or try to work on the relationship he chose to walk away

I felt like I was his garbage he was throwing away and it broke me we used to love each other and even before the breakup we were living together sleeping together had intimacy sex and he told me how he loved me and asked me to never leave him. He said we could get married at the end of the year we were looking for places for the wedding, wedding dress and this happened and I'm not sure how to cope this is the man I gave my virginity to because I thought we would be married

I felt so broken as a woman because I thought I was a good woman for him I helped him as a man I satisfy his sexual needs I cooked for him his favorite foods , I kept the house clean washed his clothes I took care of the house I listened to him I took care of myself made sure I was healthy and looked nice I had makeup I did pedicure manicure I was faithful I pray for us

So I think why was I not good enough for him to stay I feel like failure he left me and I look at other people happy together and couples that have sex before marriage and get married most people have sex before marriage and get married so I don't understand what went wrong but I love him so much

I moved in with my parents and my mom also doesn't understand why he did this she was also happy to prepare the wedding and I am single but I am afraid of the power men have to end things and walk away

There are many single mothers many divorced women because of men

Men ask for divorce to marry a younger beautiful bride I don't understand how

God ask men and women to get married so they don't sin but what happens when men are walking away from marriage Walk away from engagement walk away from relationship

Where is the healing

Is it the devil that tears these relationship apart or is it the sin of men? Or is it that they are not the one God has prepared for them

I am not sure but I want to know what is God's plans if a woman had premarital sex is not pure a virgin and is alone what can she do how can she be forgiven

How can she know God has a man for her?

How can she resist premarital sex and remain abstinent until married

How can I heal from the break up

How do I let go of the fantasy of being married to the man who left me how do I stop loving the man who hurt me how do I understand why this happened how do I heal

1 Corinthians 7:9 it is better to marry than to burn with passion