Today I sent a text to my bf saying that I don’t want to continue being together. I wanted to do it over the phone, but I know I’ll choke up and cry before I can even get the words out.

We hadn’t seen each other in like a month until today. I get to his room and expect a hug but he doesn’t initiate it so I do. It feels like I’m forcing him to hug and kiss me. We have sex and I want to be protected and ask him to use a condom and he does but takes it off and continues. He pulls out and finishes on my pubic area and pelvis. I express to him how I didn’t want him to do that but he doesn’t seem to care. We had to stop having sex because of pain I’ve been experiencing. He gets off the bed and sits on a chair in the room. I go up to him to hug him and try to initiate intimacy again but he pushes me away and tells me I’m being overbearing.

I get dressed and leave and while I’m driving away I start sobbing in my car. I felt so stupid. We hadn’t seen each other in weeks and he shows no excitement to see me. I feel like he just let me in his home out of politeness but not because I was actually invited. He gave me 0 compliments during my short time there and I made sure he felt attractive. I just felt something wasn’t right in my gut so I had to end it. I feel so miserable.