I keep having these thoughts about hurting myself

I think I am depressed. I cry all the time. So much is happening in my life. From losing a loved one to being at the stage of homelessness as my landlord is kicking us out for no reason, to problems with my university. It’s all too overwhelming for me right now. I have no one to talk to. No help. Just me and my two young children. My youngest just started school last month. I keep having these negative thoughts to hurt myself. I am afraid of speaking to anyone about these thoughts. I fear that if I speak to a professional about how I feel, they will refer me to social services and I don’t want that. So here I am, suffering in silence